Recurring dreams where the road falls out from underneath me, and I find myself plunging into water, as the car sinks and the water rises I fight to get out and to the surface. Each time the fight was successful before waking up, but each reaccurance comes on a slightly different road but the same plunging fall and recovery.
The need to be prepared has always weighed heavy on me for quite some time. Hyper vigilance is a constant thing. Always feeling as though you need to be prepared for the next disaster only lasts until I make a plan in my mind of how I will get through it then I am able to rest.
I find it especially heightened when I am taking care of other people. If this would happen…… this is how I would react…… and so on. Once it is there it seems as though “it always just is” and simply becomes “your normal.”
God seems to find ways to lead us to other people who can benefit from our experiences. It often seems when working with the individuals that I do there is often a different level of connection. Like a secret link of understanding. Often times no words are even needed. I know that is a good thing and I LOVE the time I spend with ALL of my individuals, and always have.
Many of the individuals I have worked with in the past have been non-verbal. Once you learn an individuals needs and are able to understand their ways of communication it is an awesome feeling knowing that you are making a difference in their life and are able to see the genuine emotions that clearly communicate their feelings.
My heart breaks for all the people walking around without communication problems, but with low confidence or self esteem issues that seem to make it difficult for them to live honestly.
SO MANY people get senslessly hurt when people choose to lie or be deceitful.
People who are attempting to survive through serious life issues and trauma are once again traumatized by the dishonesty of others.
When this happens on a personal level we have choices and can stand up for ourselves and we can set boundaries and prevent any further hurt.
The saddest part of all is that on a National Level many of our LEADERS are constant offenders and attackers.
The human arrogance that some leaders are choosing to exhibit, the Constant Lies, Threats, Manipulations, Aggressive Tactics to get their way is Sickening.
Pray that they stop attempting to speak for God, pray that they tame their human arrogance and realize all people are living with imperfections including them.
Stop the childish name calling, insults and manipulations.
Act like adults.
Choose to be real and stop the fake superiority, hate toward an opposing opinion and foolish finger pointing.
The average person who chooses honesty daily, who is attempting to survive and take care of others……. finds the inability of opposing parties to compromise and find common ground childish.
There is no time for that in the Average persons life……. Why can you not see constant stand offs and attacks only waist time and are unproductive.
Those who think so highly of themselves that they are unable to admit they have imperfections just like every other human being …….. should not be leaders ……. Stand up against Boastful Self Pride, Arrogance and Greed.
“Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.” Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection
With Respect, Hope, Joy and Love, Carmela
Carmela Snelbaker 