We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.
As I write this my heart is so incredibly sad. Watching my grandson’s health decline is a sadness unlike anything that one could ever image or explain. I have always treasured, and continue to treasure, each second of being a mother and a grandmother. I can remember when my children both were old enough to start school. I went through feelings of great sadness. Although I enjoyed seeing them grow up and take on new adventures, I also missed the daily adventures that we enjoyed together in their infant and preschool years.
On Wyatt’s birthday as he and I walked into his house that night after watching some fireworks in his backyard, some very distant lightning flashed in the sky. It was beautiful. It was as if a beautiful white spotlight was shining from behind big white fluffy clouds. “Look, God has sent us a light show” I commented to Wyatt as we stopped to watch.”Isn’t it pretty?” “I just seen heaven tonight” Wyatt said. I then was able to tell him that my mother is in heaven, and she is just like me. “Really?” he said. “Yes” I said, “I look like her and I even talk like her.” As a grandmother I want so desperately to be there waiting for him.
I keep saying my prayers for strength, wisdom and peace. I truly believe the spirit in each one of us is equipped with an internal GPS system “God’s Planned Steps” for our lives. Each step may not be easy, but along the way as we may fall to our knees in tears completely overwhelmed with sadness, God does provide us with the strength to keep going and opens our eyes to reveal awesome beauty and fills our hearts with peace and love.
With respect, hope, joy and love, Carmela