A caregivers ears hear many things. No-one’s life is ever free of difficulties of some sort, and each life has a path and a purpose only they will be able to fulfill.
“I don’t know why I am still here.” a 90 year old says to me. “That must mean you still have wisdom to pass on to us.” I tell him.
Wisdom however, is not always passed on easily. Quite possibly the wisdom our own life possesses may not even be apparent to us while we’re living. Is this what frustrates our existence and stirs up anger or restlessness in us?
Attempting to live out our purpose and understand why we are still here is often a struggle.
Although some pretty bits of wisdom are sometimes spoken sweetly, and appear to come with ease. A number of my experiences could be better explained as a scavenger hunt. The Wisdom may only be revealed to me after being preceded by many long days of hearing statements such as “Clean out your ears” “don’t you listen?” “Get the hell out of here.” It is only when I continue to go back for more, when the beauty finally is revealed.
I wholeheartedly believe in Divine Guidance. When we follow our inner voice and bravely do as we feel it is leading us to do, amazing things happen. The Journey may not always be easy and carefree but most assuredly the individuals you meet along the way are a blessing not just a chance encounter but a divine introduction.
As the majority of the world is enduring the busy responsibilities that everyday life often demands, others are faced with the seriousness of palliative care or hospice care. The differences in these two worlds are huge.
This is a journey one enters into kicking and screaming with resistance! As with anything that hurts, it is most natural for our heart to want to turn away from and run as fast as you can to escape the pain of loss. Not being able to distance yourself from it’s approach can leave a soul angry and confused.
A heart that Truly loves others grieves with profound sadness when the journey of another Soul begins a new path of life and leaves it’s earthly body, friends and family behind.
Messages of Wisdom come most profoundly from the heaviest of hearts. Life on earth is not always happiness and joy. Great Wisdom and Growth often happen in the midst of great pain and sorrow. The silent moments that unfold as a Soul is nearing the end of their earthly journey are moments in time like no other.
This past week several Beautiful Souls have completed their earthly journey and entered into their new life beyond earth. I feel truly honored to have met them and spent time being their caregiver. My heart aches along with their families.
Like a fingerprint on a piece of glass, every Soul is unique. The Wisdom and Love they leave upon the earth could only be passed along by them.
I will hold dearly their unique wisdom and will continue sharing their memory and wisdom with others here on earth. Although my heart is heavy now, getting to know them and sharing time in their presence has left a very positive influence on my life.
Among the still and quiet moments we spend with someone on this journey profound messages are communicated. Even when the moments feel only like silent helplessness their wisdom will eventually reach you and become clear.
It is an honor like no other for our hearts to be able to facilitate the wisdom of an Angelic Soul beginning life anew, Peaceful and Free of pain and sorrow.
A song miraculously found its way to my ears during heartbreaking outcries of grief and confusion this week. With each loss we experience, each one so drastically different and unique, it often feels overwhelmingly hard to make sense of the details and circumstances.
My heart finds strength from those I give care to. I will continue on, being grateful for each and every Soul my life’s journey introduces me to. Each and every Angelic Soul holds a very special place in my heart.
Once a Soul’s message of wisdom is released it is impossible to contain it once again. It will float freely to influence many others who long to understand it’s message.
With Respect, Hope, Joy and Love, Carmela
Carmela Snelbaker 
5 thoughts on “Why Am I Still Here? They Ask”
thechickengrandma
This is beautiful. My great aunt just passed away yesterday. She was in pain from cancer and so ready to go home to her husband and Jesus. Such a great day for her but still so sad for those left behind who will miss her. She had so much wisdom. I have a feeling her wise words will keep circulating because of her children, grandchildren and great grandchildren.
carmelasnelbaker
I truly believe an Angel’s messages somehow miraculously continue to reach all in need of their wisdom. Blessing and prayers for family and all of her loved ones!
David Swan
Hello, really nice to see you pop by and I read your views on facebook as regards with people of terminal illness.
One of my books 369 deals with terminal illness but I cant be sure if it is negative or it is positive as the father accepts his passing through meditation. I would be more than happy to send you a free copy to get your insight about whether this book is helpful or not. Thanks David
carmelasnelbaker
I would love to read your book! I enjoyed you blog writing very much. I did not have much time to spend reading at the time I visited but will certainly return and check more items out. Feel free to email carmelasnelbaker@yahoo.com
gc
“We enter the world kicking and screaming” . An outside agent slaps the newborn’s butt and it is wakened into a world filled with unknowns and uncertainties. They are frightened by the light more than aware of its presence and deeper significance to them.
The person who has attained a great number of years under his/her belt involuntarily goes about kicking and screaming and protesting reality as they see it. They have a firmer understanding of the cacopohny of sights and sounds that have filled their world for many years. They now live on the frigne of that reality.
Like the newborn they feel powerless to have any real effect on their own lives especially if they are living in an assisted living environment.They are now totally dependent on caretakers for thei daily existence.
The wisdom they had acquired through years of trial-and-error is now meaningless. They feel slighted and angry that their lives have deteriorated to this level of exstence.
I applaud you for your continued determination and grit to keep at them no matter how much they protest your “interference”. They desperately need someone like you to help them express themselves once again as adults and not merely as patients needing constant attention and monitoring.
Many kudos to you for helping them. Try not to let their facade of indifference affect your own feelings and attitudes. You are performing a wonderful service these folks truly relish.. They are only hesitant to tell you this.
God bless. Take care. Stay optimistic and hopeful. 🙂