I appologize in advance because nothing I write here will probably make complete sense to anyone other then me. I cannot share details about others I take care of or that are involved in my life.
However, events, encounters and the questions that often get left behind, after traumatic events and the struggle to make sense out of so much hurt is not an uncommon dilemma.
I hope by sharing the hurts and questions that weigh so heavy on my heart it might make sense to someone struggling with the same questions.
There are way to many painful experiences that people go through that leave us devastated and searching for a path out of such deep hurt.
The things we have in common with others are not always apparent when we first meet someone.
The scars one has on their heart is not a visable trait for a passerby to see.
Time passes, we somehow find a way to move forward along with the rest of world but the hurts that hit the heart the hardest never really go away.
It is possible for people who appear to have amazing resiliency from past traumatic events to be truly living their lives as if they have been “cast in a roll in a play”. Survival is necessary because others depend on us.
Hearts scarred from life tragedies can identify with others “surviving” with scarred hearts, there is a heightened awarness and recognition of deep hurts in others.
Is the road less traveled the tragically broken heart that keeps walking even when your body simply wants to stop breathing?
Is the road less traveled the road where those with broken hearts attempt to seek out other “play actors” walking forward with hidden traumatic pain in an attempt to be the positive influence and offer the very support and love they desperatly need themselves?
Is the road less traveled the road that keeps an open heart and empathy toward all people in pain even those showing unsettled rage and aggression because of devestation and pain?
What if all of the hate in the world is emotionally misdirected hurt and rage?
What if the road less traveled is the road of silencing human feelings, the emotional pain and praying for the message of God to take over?
As I type this I sit here crying, the only words coming to mind are….. “now wait, now….. you just have to be smarter then the chair you are working on” ………… recalculating …… return to route
Please leave your thought below……… open a discussion with others….. share you thoughts, fears, hopes with others……
Nothing can ever be resolved without putting words to feelings, sharing experiences and most importantly being sensitive and empathetic to other situations
With Respect, Hope, Joy and Love, Carmela
Carmela Snelbaker 